I am very nervous. I worry all the time, ...although I don't voice it alot to those around me. I don't want to seem panicky or paranoid but there is not day that goes by that I don't wonder if everything is ok in there. After everything we have been through, I think that subconsciously I am preparing myself for the worst. I take my medication religiously and have taken every precaution for early pregnancy that I have read. No sandwich meats, no hotdogs, no nail salons...nothing that is labeled as "possibly harmful in early pregnancy." Ok, so maybe I am paranoid, but I have a good reason.
I know this is my last child and I really want to enjoy my pregnancy. Maybe these feelings will get better after I pass the first trimester...but knowing me, probably not. Maybe when I begin to feel kicks everyday and the baby has some sort of "schedule" that I can recognize I can chill out a bit. Then again, I may not feel some sort of relief until after I am far enough along to know that the baby is at least big enough to survive outside of the womb.
I don't remember being as worried with my other 3 children. Maybe it was because I was 10 years younger. I suppose I have turned into a worry wart... parenting will do that to you.