The weirdest dream....

I am doing this blog pretty early...6:45am to be exact.  I had to go ahead and write it down before I forget any part of it.

I had a dream that I had the baby at home, alone with nobody else there with me.  The baby was born feet first and in my dream I do not recall having much pain associated with the birth... (indeed this is a dream!)  After he was born, I held him and talk to him. He didn't have as much hair as I have pictured him to have, but he had the most precious face ever. Cutting the cord didn't make it into my dream. I began feeling very sick after he was born and felt like I was running a fever.  I decided I needed to go to the hospital to make sure everything was ok with us, but not before stopping by the mall.  I had no carseat to put him in, so I raised my shirt up to find a small incision in my stomach.  It was almost like it could be opened and closed like a ziploc sandwich bag.  I opened the incision, and put the baby back. (maybe I am part kangaroo?)

I got to the mall and met my cousin Andrea there.  I had told her I had the baby and I had put him back because of the carseat and she asked me to take him back out so she could see him.  We stopped outside of a store in the mall, I lifted my shirt, unzipped my incision and pulled the baby back out.  Although I was facing a corner, people had began to gather around behind my back (like they had never seen a baby pop out of a belly in the middle of the mall before :)  Andrea shoo'd them away and when I got him out, I wrapped him in a blanket and showed him to Andrea.  I remember in my dream staring at him and he was staring back.  He had blue eyes and thin light brown hair.  He never cried.

After this, I told Andrea I was feeling horrible and needed to get to the hospital to be checked.  So I left and went.  This time I didn't put the baby back.  I just held him instead.  When I got to the hospital I explained that I had given birth at home.  There were several of my friends and family members there... except for Ryan and the kids. (this must come from my fear that he won't be with me at the hospital because he never answers his cell phone when I call and he is at work)  The nurses checked me out and told me I was getting an infection because the placenta was never delivered.  They took the baby and then rushed me back where they put my feet in stirrups and began pushing on my stomach trying to finalize the delivery.  The doctor in the room was CC... from Skateland and his wife Lori was in there holding my hand.  It was the weirdest thing!  After working on me a while, he was able to get it out and I began feeling better almost immediately.  Lori brought the baby back into the room and handed him to me.  My dream ended with me nursing him...

Whoa.... what a dream!